Positivity vs Negativity.

This morning I'm feeling self-critical. This is something that is my constant companion, a little Devil of Negativity (DoN) whispering in my ear to me that I'm not worthy while the Angel of Positivity (AoP) slumbers gently on. Today's criticism has taken the form of a 'realisation' that every negative event or setback in my life has been the result of my own action or inaction, commission or omission or as a consequence of my procrastinatory personality.

My mind tells me that relationship break downs, criticism for poor work performance, or missed opportunities have all been because of something I've done or not done over the years; a sort of self-sabotage snatching defeat from the jaws of victory approach to life.

I know this hasn't always been the case and although at times I have been my own worst enemy there have also been reasons beyond my control for many of the setbacks I've encountered. I just wish the AoP would get its arse in gear and tell that to the DoN so I can stop feeling bad about myself.

What the AoP would tell me is that I'm a kind, good natured, helpful and funny guy who although I'm content to be on my own, is happy to be sociable should the need arise. I am not the insular, grumpy old man that the DoN will have me believe.

So, how to address this issue? I don't know is the simple answer. Solutions on a postcard are welcome while in the meantime the battle between the AoP and the DoN continues.

Peace and love xx